Whim VS Wisdom
If you are serious about the dharma, try to let go of what you are attached to and try to accept what you find difficult to accept. At the very least try to question your likes and dislikes.
This alone will open up a new path for you and you will be able to make headway in your practice.
If you are lucky enough to meet a real lama, who sees that you are serious about the dharma, this is what he will encourage you to do.